*One Rainy Night*

Tonight I fell in love with a woman. It sounds so ridiculous but it's the truth. I met such a beautiful, smart, secure, and confident woman...she really just captured my attention so strongly. I just wanted to hear her talk all night long. I actually got jealous when she gave her attention to another man. I just wanted her to focus on me, but most of all I wanted her validation. Just like when I meet a guy I like, I normally receive validation right away, especially if there is an obvious connection. I wasn't getting this with this girl though. It was unbelievable. I've never felt so venerable, insecure and wimpy -- next to a woman! Let it be a man, please... I'd love that challenge, but a woman? I was just infatuated by her, taken by her beauty...I wanted to stare at her all night, and hear her speak wise words to me, and continue telling me stories of her greatest adventures. All this was real. Real emotions too. In the most beautifully furnished house in the hills, with flickering candles everywhere. This woman was real, and a model at that. She spoke the most beautiful spanish dialect, she was elegant, she was secure in every possible way, she even claimed to love getting older (she was 32). Her beauty was intoxicating, she was a live piece of art- a masterpiece right in front of my eyes. What really got me was how she owned herself. Not a man nor woman, or anything in this world was going to make that women feel any less. That's a type of confidence a woman is not known to have!! and god....I was just taken away, blown away. In every sense of the way I aspire to be her one day. I fell in love with a woman, and she broke my heart. All in one night. On shrooms...